It’s been more than a month since my last post. My life has been all over the place recently, with a little good news, but mostly bad.
About a month ago I finally found a job after a three months of searching for literally anything. Dealing with customer service isn’t exactly fun, but I’m getting paid, which is all I care about right now. It’s only temporary until I go back to school in the fall.
In August I’ll be moving into a house with two girls I went to my previous university with. It’ll be nice to once again be living with friends rather than two people I don’t get along with, which is what it’s like right now.
But the main reason for the absence of posts is the bad news – my mother passed away. This is by far the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with. However, I am very fortunate to have a wonderfully supporting family, a loving boyfriend who is always there for me when I need him, and friends I can rely on. This terrible news is the reason I’ve decided to start blogging again.
Yesterday I was alone for several hours. Since my mother’s passing, I’ve rarely been alone, and have spent all my time with my boyfriend and family. I knew the pain was going to be worse on my own, which it was. Unsurprisingly, though, when I started cooking dinner last night, my mood sifted back to (almost) normal. Cooking has always been a way for me to relieve stress, but I didn’t know how well it would help me deal with the loss of someone I loved so deeply.
So, the point of this post is to just say that due to the end of my financial problems, as well as using cooking/food to relieve stress, there’s going to be a lot of new posts in the future. Also, I got bored with the old look, and am much more fond of Ahimsa’s new layout.
June 7, 2010 at 9:16 pm
I’m so sorry for your loss – I can’t even imagine what you’re feeling right now. It is amazing, though, how something as simple as making a meal or baking a dessert can be such a cathartic experience.
June 9, 2010 at 1:05 pm
I also can’t imagine how this would feel. Much love and hugs Karmalily! {{hugs}}
Once I’m done with my field work stuff and have a little more weekend time I hope we can have some kitchen communing so you can cook and not be alone! Actually maybe this Saturday evening, with Pandacookie or something!